This is a hard one. I mean, it’s never easy giving up a foster, but it does get easier the more you do it and sometimes the tears don’t fall when they leave. But, with you, it’s hard.
I just wanted to give you a place to crash until your forever family showed up. I thought we’d have some fun, get you more socialized and then your new family would show up. You are so cute, I figured it wouldn’t take too long. I’ve always said that being a foster is all about your mindset. If you know it’s temporary and you know you can’t have another dog because it would mean no more fostering, or if you know that every dog you successfully foster means another dog can be saved, it’s easier to keep it light. But I still knew that as a foster some dogs will test you and what a test you ended up being!
As soon as you walked through the door, another shy, scared chihuahua, I knew this wasn’t going to be so easy. Rescued by a wonderful woman, your guardian angel Laura Weitner (read about and see the pictures here: https://www.facebook.com/pg/llpsinc/photos/?tab=album&album_id=373293723063174), you had such an interesting backstory. I don’t know how you did it, living alone in that disgusting house for nine months after your owner died, but I am so glad Laura had the determination to capture you and work to rehabilitate you for so many months. She loved you so much Brody, but knew, like I do, that she was just a part of your journey. She let you go to grow and get stronger with tears in her eyes much like the tears in mine now. I think back to when I went to pick you up, how you wanted nothing to do with me. I could see how attached you’d become to Laura and I wasn’t sure how you’d handle coming home with me.
And then we got home and you jumped in my lap! From day one, you were nothing like what I expected you’d be like. Other than your fear of strangers, you were so easy and so affectionate. And so quirky! What a funny personality you have. Obsessing over your lamb toy, demanding attention and crawling into my wine buffet or under my couch. I knew I had to be picky with where you ended up because you were too special. Your new family needed to appreciate your sensitive nature, your kind heart and let’s admit it, your moody nature with other dogs. I didn’t intend to have you this long and get this attached; I just wanted you to have the best.
I know you loved me and trusted me so I felt like I owed you this letter, but I know that this letter is more for me than for you. You will be fine and you won’t miss me as much as I will miss you. And that gives me the strength to say goodbye.
Thank you for showing me that I am strong enough to love so deeply and let go. You’ve cleared the space for another foster, when I am ready (and it will take some time.)
And, please come visit since you’ll be in Cleveland.
Love you forever Brody.